[Fanmix] Monthly Mix: December 2013: I Have to Save Myself First

Medium: Fanmix
Fandom: General
Subject: Monthly Mix
Title: I Have to Save Myself First
Warnings: Mature content, just to be safe.
Notes: This is a personal mix.  I am remembering new memories of my childhood. So this is how I deal with trauma. Two songs are about my ex. The t.A.t.U song is because I've been listening to it a lot. I have youtube videos as previews, and click on each song to hear them. I want to thank my soon-to-be wife for all her help with the laptop. :D If there is any issues with mediafire, please let me know.


1. Nightmares as a Child- The Twilight Zone

2. Bleed (I Must be Dreaming)- Evanescence

You heard me breathe
And I froze inside myself
And turned away
I must be dreaming

3. Come Little Children

Come little children, I'll take thee away
into a land of Enchantment,
Come little children, the time's come to play
here in my garden of Shadows.

4. All Is Lost- The Hogfather

5. I'm Sorry (EP)- Flyleaf

I'm falling
I'm shedding my skin

6. Chysalis- In Tenebris

Fixating on my wounds again
Pulling at my limbs just to see how far I bend
Pursuing every detail in my skin
I am self dissection and I cherish every pin

7. 13 x Forever- Garbage

And this one's for the father
Who loves his little daughter Well here I am
Don't even bother

8. Skin & Bones- The Rosie Burgess Trio

9. Starring Role- Marina + the Diamonds

It almost feels like a joke to play out the part
When you are not the starring role in someone else's heart
You know I'd rather work alone, than play a supporting role
If I can't get the starring role.

10. 4 O'Clock- Emilie Autumn

Why can we never go back to bed?
Whose is the voice ringing in my head?
Where is the sense in these desperate dreams?
Why should I wake when I'm half past dead?

Sure as the clock keeps its steady chime
Weak as I walk to its steady rhyme
Ticking away from the ones we love
So many girls, so little time

11. Fear to Breathe- In Tenebris

I can still feel you here
Traces you left to reappear
I cannot escape this aching dread
Clouds forever drift inside my head

12. 30 Minutes (Remix)- T.A.T.U

13. Wolf- Angelspit

you got big teeth, but I got a knife!

14. Cross-Bones Style- Cat Power

Oh come child
In a cross bones style
Oh come child
Come and rescue me

Cause you have seen some unbelievable things

15. Aviary- Ego Likeness

In I come, a firebird
Don't offer up your sorrow
Today you see me crash and burn
But I'll be back tomorrow.


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